What a Birthday Surprise!! Grrrr

Yesterday, Nov. 26, I celebrated my 25th birthday. at first, my bday was quite boring. It wasn't what i wanted to! I treated my officemates at Famous then after dumaan kami ni Molit sa church para mag light ng candle. I got home at around 10 am then nagdrama2 pa so natulog ako at 11 am na. (BTW, thanks so much to all who greeted me. I really appreciate it). Actually, months ago hindi talaga ito ang plans ko for my bday but for some instance, hindi nangyari ang bagay na gusto kong mangyari. Sad to say. I go to the church na mag isa lang ako at 6 pm. wala na pa lang mass nun so nag light na lang ako ng candle then nag dasal. Alam mo yung feeling na bday na bday mo tapos ang dami mong hinanakit na na fefeel sa dibdib mo. Hindi talaga ganito ang plans ko for my bday. :-( I must admit hindi ako happy nung bday ko hindi naman sa hindi talaga ako masaya it's just that there's something missing na meron talagang emptiness. I know in my heart na meron talagang missing. kakalungkot lang kasi hindi ko ine expect na ganito mangyayari. :-( After which, nag text ung frend ko sa college na c levy sabi nya nasa bahay na daw xa so nagmadali akong umuwi then yun pagdating ko dun sa haus namin nandun na ung frend ko. he brought a cake for me.. buti pa xa.. :-( and so i decided na gumala na lang kami after namin mag eat sa hauz and so i'm thinking na mag Recreo kami so un na. hinintay namin c twinnie sa haus den sabay2 na kaming tatlo papuntang recreo. tinext ko na lang c jay ung isa ko pang kaklase na sa recreo na lang kami magkita and after 10 minutes dumating xa. kanta lang ako ng kanta dun.. then dumating din c dennis and c jeser. so anim lang kami lahat. alam nila na me problema ako kaya un kahit na kumakanta ako alam nila na there's something on me. :-(

And here it goes....

Dumating ako sa haus at around 1:30 am. kinausap ako ng mama ko and sabi nya wala na daw sa hauz ung kuya ko and yung asawa niya BECAUSE OF ME. and sabi pa ng mama ko na hindi daw ako gusto ng asawa ng kuya ko.. Hilasan daw xa sa akoa, pamati daw ko, feeling hari daw ko, superior daw ko sa hauz.. :-( sakit kaau para sa akoa.. she doesn't have the right to judge me! hindi pa niya ako kilala. she doesn't know me very well! sana man lang nirespeto niya ung bday ko sa bday ko pa talaga cla umalis! honestly, naawa ako sa mama ko kasi sa nangyayari xa talaga ung affected masyado. nakikita ko un sa mga mata niya. :-( pano kung may nangyari sa mama ko? ni hindi nya na nirespeto mama ko. sana man lang inisip nya ang kalagayan ng mama ko. kahit noon pa wala akong problema sa kanya xa lang pala tong may galit sa akin sa simula pa lang. and sabi ng mama ko sa kanya, ganyan naman talaga yan c raquel dati pa. and besides hindi ka naman sinasaktan ni raquel. All day, iyak lang ako ng iyak. natulog ako around 2 am, pag gising ko iyak na naman ako until afternoon. hahayy.. what a bday surprise! hindi mo ma fefeel kung gaano kasakit until ikaw na mismo ang nakaranas.. :-(

Anyways, here are our photos..

....never AGAIN....

I will NOT let anyone hurt me. NEVER AGAIN! Soon in God's time, he will realized how stupid he was! I confess, i am still not ok but i'm trying my very best to get over him. What HE did to me is unacceptable! He's not worth it!

Wish you real happiness! May you find the perfect girl you ever wanted! A girl who doesn't have vices, who doesn't FLIRT with other guys. If you can't be honest with HER, just be CAREFUL!

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♥ To all the C-H-E-A-T-E-R-S ♥

Here's to all the suc*ers out there and to those who intend to be one.

-You dont have the right to hurt anybody especially the ladies, the ladies who does nothing but love you.

-When you don't feel contented about how things are going with your relationships, looking for somebody else or another one is never the solution.Were you even thinking?.You're making me puke!.lol!

-Whatever you do in your life, do it responsibly.In every action, there's always a corresponding reaction/circumstance you should be aware of that. Karma will always be there to back us up so just wait for your seasons you freaking maggots!

-Don't be so pathetic in giving excuses because only those that are born losers give such excuses. Don't make us some fool.we all are born rational.You just dont seem to be using ur head...stop concentrating on your D***!

-Yes, women are far more great in number than with men..but it doesnt mean that you guys should get as much as you want.How would you feel that if in the end, nobody would ever come to you anymore?.not even just to give a glance.Oh, poor fella!.lol!

Men who cheat are never deserving of any kind of love from anybody..not even from pets.lol!.The next time you cheat, make it good.Because you'll never know what you'll get by the time you realized your neck's already gushing with blood.haha

Men may be cool but it doesnt mean they could rule the world.Face it, You can never live without women around you.Even from the simplest things in your lives, you would still need women..always and forever.So dont wait for the time that women gets fused up by all your sucking habits. Its not always that women will surrender to you.They have their own lives to live..So if you still want to have a glimpse of your future..behave mhen.or you'll get your sweet dose of your own medz.. ;)

Its never my loss but his.He'll soon realized how stupid he was..

♥ Pieces of Me ♥

New Hairstyle for 2008. weeeee..

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♥ Memorable Pics ♥

These photos were taken right before our shift is about to start.. hehehe.. Taking advantage of the webcam that is installed on Molit's PC.. weeee.. Camera Freak? well, you judge! hahaha..

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♥ Mood: Emo ♥

Sometimes, you make me feel that you don't care for me at all.

♥ Is it Over? :-( ♥

I've had to deal with problems for the past few days and that's the mere reason why i haven't posted anything on my blog. What i went through is not easy though i have no choice but to be strong.

I filed a 1-day vacation leave last Monday. SOmehow, it helped me to worry-free myself from all the problems I've encountered. I am very much open to talk about my personal problems with my officemates. In fact, i always ask for their own opinion and see what advise i could get from them. I remember what Molit told me last night something like: "Gurl, if you want to work things out or want to make things better then i suggest hold on to that person but if time comes, you can no longer take the pain then it'd be better to let go of that person. it's too much! Be strong, Hold on and Have Faith."..

It feels so good when you have your good friends with you especially in times that you needed them most. I can say i am lucky enough to have them. They are NOT a bad influence to me. I just want to take this opportunity to thank them for always been there for me.

I hope 1 day he'd be able to see my worth. Only time can tell him that. I watched "Your Song" last sunday and there's line there that hits me. A guy (played by Enchong Dee) said and it goes something like: "Ngayon, handa na ako na maging bf mo" and the girl (played by Kim Chiu) replied: "At ngayon para sa akin wala na".. touching, isn't it? If you happen to be an avid viewer of this show, you'll know what i'm talking about.

Our relationship may not be perfect but it was REAL. :-(

I don't wanna talk about my personal problem. I just don't feel like doing it. I can still take the pain, I just know when to stop. :-(

♥ Just for Fun ♥

The photos were taken at San Pedro Memorial Park last November 1 and at my Uncle's place during his birthday celebration last November 7.

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■ Someday

By: Nina

Someday, you'll gonna realize
One day, you'll see this through my eyes
But then I won't even be there
I'll be happy somewhere
Even if I can't

I know you don't really see my worth
You think you're the last guy on earth
Well, I've got news for you
I know I'm not that strong
But it won't take long, won't take long

'Cause someday, someone's gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day, I'll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you
Someday, someday

But now, I know you can tell
I'm down and I'm not doin' well
But one day, these tears
They will all run dry
I won't have to cry sweet goodbye

'Cause someday, someone's gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place, woh
One day, I'll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you
Someday, I know someone's gonna be there

Someday, someone's gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day, I'll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you
Someday, someday

Ahh yeah yeah

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